I felt really down at bed time last night; very tearful. I think everything that has happened suddenly hit me, and I cried. Why me?
I felt angry at myself for getting upset, I should just get on with it there’s nothing I can do.
I was scared to have another shower, after feeling so unsteady yesterday. Mum said she would help, but no 20 year old wants their mum to help them shower! So I did it myself. Mum helped me with washing my feet and shaving my legs, which I hated because it’s not the sort of thing your mum normally does for you! I want to do it myself!
I want to sunbathe today because it is so nice. I can’t properly though, because I can’t lie on my sides or tummy. So I will be tanned on the front but no where else. It’s stupid!