Socialising

6th April

One of my housemates from Lancaster came to visit me today!  I wasn’t having a great day but I made the effort seeing as she had travelled quite far to see me.  Lately I’ve had feelings of wanting to be by myself and not see anyone, because I am so tired I don’t have the energy.  I hate people seeing me having difficulties, I am so used to being independent and feeling ‘normal’, and people have only really seen me like this (normal).  So it’s hard for me to let them see me like this.

I couldn’t even pick up my hair straighteners this morning! What’s a girl to do?

8^th April – party!

Yesterday I got invited to a house party tonight.  I was really looking forward to it!  But this morning I woke up with pains.  I went into town for some fresh air with my brother, but because I was sat in the wheelchair I was really stiff when I came to get out.  As the day wore on I didn’t get any better (not that I was expecting to).  I’d suddenly lost my enthusiasm for going to the party, I didn’t want people to see me and start asking questions. The way I feel lately, I probably would have started crying.  I decided not to bother, and so spent the rest of the night moping around and feeling frustrated at how restricted I am becoming.